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30 April 2008 @ 07:02 pm
fic: "Protective Aggression"  
Title: Protective Aggression
Fandom: Torchwood
Pairing: Jack/Ianto
Rating: NC-17
Summary: A souldier never comes out of a war unscathed and Jack's trained Ianto to be one almost to perfection
AN: Not one for any challenges yet, just needed to get this out and finished
Life at Torchwood has never been safe or simple. Sometimes, they see shit that leaves them wrung out and shaking from both exhaustion and horror. Jack has spent three years carefully building and shaping his team, making them the best he could and he’s succeeded beyond measure. They’re strong, as both a team and on their own. He has to acknowledge that his leaving has played a large part in that but, as he watches them now, he can honestly say he’s proud. Very proud.
Ianto’s changed the most and the quickest, Jack believes. After Gwen, the youngest addition to his little unit, the young Welshman has gone from begging for a job, to timid background noise, to a strong independent member.
A strong independent lover as well. One of the many changes Ianto has gone through is his position in their relationship. Where once he’d simply been there for Jack's own private entertainment – and Jack still cringes when he thinks about it – while trying to get enough wool over Jack's eyes so he could hide his cyber girlfriend in the basement, he’s now become a full-time partner, in every aspect. Ianto doesn't meekly allow Jack to take control over everything anymore and he has no issues with kicking up a fuss whenever he feels he needs to. At first, Jack had watched him with slight amusement, amazed that Ianto had changed this much and had apparently decided that Jack was worth the risk – for which Jack is rather grateful – but his half smile had only lasted until Ianto blew a fuse and claimed Jack wasn't taking this serious. He'd shown Ianto just how serious he was that night. And the next morning, seconds before the others arrived. Ianto had retaliated by grabbing his dick under the conference table, making Jack yelp, right in the middle of a meeting. Looking too smug about it, Ianto was banned to the far end of the conference table.
Jack said sorry that afternoon, but Ianto was still staying at the other end of the table.
Ianto has grown more and more possessive too and Jack, to his utter surprise, has yielded to it. He even revels in it, perhaps. Ianto touches a part of him that, until recently, only the Doctor knew how to get to. He lets Jack flirt, but when enough is enough, he has no qualms about calling Jack back down. Jack would wink and smile, but still stop flirting.
They were out on a Weevil hunt one night, finding a nest in an area that was too populated to be safe for the locals. Jack and Ianto were taking one side of the building and Gwen and Owen the other side with Tosh coordinating from the Hub.
He has no idea why Tosh hadn't seen them, but suddenly three Weevils had appeared behind Jack and one was ripping open his neck before Ianto had the chance to move. He knew Jack couldn't die, but that hadn't quelled his worry and anger and Ianto mercilessly killed the Weevil and sedated the other two, still rigidly standing over the dead one when Jack came to. 
In the end, they managed to sedate all weevils and ready them for transport, but Ianto was still vibrating from what he had felt when he saw Jack falling limply to the ground. 
On the rive back home, Jack can’t help but glance in Ianto’s direction occasionally. Ianto just sits frozen, hands clenched tightly into first on his lap, utterly quiet. There are twitches in his shoulders and Jack has no doubt every muscle in his body is tense. Jack keeps giving him worried looks until they’re back in Cardiff, hoping the drive would somehow ease Ianto, but it doesn’t.
He drops everyone off at their respective homes and follows Ianto into his.
They’ve just barely stepped inside Ianto's apartment when the younger man shoves Jack against the still closing door and latches onto him, crushing his lips against Jack's and demanding Jack open up to him, cursing under his breath that he needs to feel Jack against him, under him, around him and he needs to lose himself, if just for a moment.
“Ianto,” Jack breathes against his lips when Ianto pulls back long enough to draw in necessary air, but all Ianto does as a reply is shove him harder against the door and grind himself against Jack, biting and licking his way down his neck. Jack bucks and curses but gives him free range, letting Ianto do what he wants.
He roughly pulls Jack's coat off his shoulders and his braces down, before ripping open the shirt and pushing it down as well. The tee and pants are removed with equal carelessness and before Jack is even aware of it, he’s leaning heavily against the door, completely naked, with Ianto very much not naked.
“Bed,” he pants, sure there’re much more comfortable places to do this, but Ianto ignores him and goes down on his knees. “Fuck!” Jack hisses when his head slams backwards and hits the door with a loud bang. His fingers scramble helplessly against the door when Ianto deep-throats him in one smooth move; despite the tenseness in the rest of his body, relaxing his throat. He doesn’t waste any time to tease or torture Jack with the talents Jack know very well he possesses, just licks, nibbles, sucks and uses his skills to get Jack off as quickly as he can. Not long after, Jack arches and cries out when he comes hard and fast.
He’s still panting for much needed oxygen when Ianto once more claims his mouth as his with the taste of Jack's come still fresh on his lips. Jack has half a brain cell to stop and think what this is all about – Ianto, albeit his moments of assertiveness has never been this aggressive - but truthfully, Jack’s way too turned on by it to even consider voicing his concerns. Ianto can pretty much do with him whatever he wants. He’s always could.
Which, apparently, he’s going to, because next he knows, Jack’s pushed face first into the couch, knees slamming against the edge before sliding down onto the carpet, his ass sticking out. Then two fingers, slick with what Jack can only imagine to be spit are pushed inside him, thrusting in and out in rapid movements, quickly opening him to something much larger.
Jack has barely enough time to relax into it before the fingers are replaced and Ianto pushes in. Jack grits his teeth against the pain and digs his nails into the couch. Ianto is pounding into him, pushing Jack deeper and deeper into the couch. He gives him a momentary respite when he lifts Jack so they’re standing and Jack puts his hand on the back rest, Ianto's hands gripping his shoulders and then he starts pounding anew. Jack groans with the force of Ianto pushing him forward, but he locks his arms and soon starts pushing back, so completely overwhelmed and overturned that he doesn’t feel the pain is his ass anymore. All he wants is harder and faster and just... more.
And then one of Ianto's hands wraps itself around Jack's cock, stroking once, twice, three times and Jack is coming so hard for a second time the world greys out for a moment. His arms give out when Ianto thrusts in one last time before freezing and coming deep inside Jack's body.
Jack slumps awkwardly on the couch with Ianto plastered over him, his cock still buried deep. When his brain cells start working again, he shifts slightly, his calves and knees beginning to protest the squatting and feels Ianto move beside him.
The kiss to his shoulder blade is a far contrast to Ianto's earlier behaviour and he hisses when Ianto slowly pulls out. He’s manhandled onto the couch into a more comfortable position and would be quite content with dozing off, if it wasn't for the little nag in his subconscious that wants answers.
“That was intense,” he admits when Ianto plasters himself against his chest. He frowns when he doesn't get any answer, except Ianto squeezing his hand. “Ianto?” he asks, worried now. He lifts a hand to raise Ianto's chin and looks him in the eye, but Ianto resists and instead buries deeper into Jack's embrace.
“Ianto, what's wrong?” he asks more forcefully, shifting so he has a better angle to watch his lover's reactions. He gets really worried when Ianto averts his eyes.
“I wanted to kill them all,” Ianto whispers eventually.
“The Weevils. After that one attacked you, I wanted to kill them all.”
Suddenly realising where Ianto's aggression has come from, Jack wraps his arms around him tightly, promising, “I didn't die.” He hadn't. He came close, but he hadn't actually died, that time. “And you know I always come back to you.”
“I know,” Ianto sobs. “But when that Weevil... I would kill for you Jack, without a second thought. And it scares me. So much.”
Jack has absolutely nothing to say to that, both extremely warmed by the love and protection he has from his young Welshman, but also as equally worried about what that had resulted to and knowing he can't change it. Knowing that Ianto wouldn't let him change it.
“I love you,” he says quietly, before kissing the top of Ianto's head. “My Ianto.” He gently trails fingers over Ianto's back, listening as eventually Ianto's breath evens out and he falls asleep. Jack doesn't; guilt and worry both tearing at him for changing Ianto this much. An extremely good soldier in a fight to safe the future. But no soldier comes out of a war unscathed and Jack has not only trained Ianto into one, he's let Ianto become one to almost perfection, has allowed the last leftover innocence to crumble into ruthlessness the day he agreed to let Ianto work for him.
“L've y',” Ianto mumbles into his sleep and Jack swallows tightly.
He hopes Ianto won’t become that good of a soldier and lose even that.
Current Mood: coldcold
amyrossamyross on April 30th, 2008 06:10 pm (UTC)
This was excellent. Really, really liked it. I especially liked all the contrasts you included.

kesemily_sheppard on April 30th, 2008 06:11 pm (UTC)
thanks :)
timelordconstimelordcons on April 30th, 2008 06:32 pm (UTC)
That was really powerful and deep, I like it :)
kesemily_sheppard on April 30th, 2008 06:34 pm (UTC)
thank you :)

(also, yes, there were spelling mistakes. Was still tweaking and fixing them. just saying)

Edited at 2008-04-30 06:35 pm (UTC)
(no subject) - timelordcons on April 30th, 2008 06:37 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - emily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 06:00 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Sarah: torchwood// jack// black and whitesazzat on April 30th, 2008 06:57 pm (UTC)
This was excellent. Really intence and emotional in all the right places.
I really enjoyed this and the last main paragraph was particularly nerve hitting.

Your fics are always a great read :)
kes: TW Jack/Ianto animated smirk/prOnemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:58 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hun :)
tracylynn: Jack Walltotallytracy on April 30th, 2008 07:55 pm (UTC)
WOW ! Such a powerful love. Very nicely done. Loved it.
kesemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)
faceted_mindfaceted_mind on April 30th, 2008 09:07 pm (UTC)
I think Dark!Ianto has such potential. I have this idea of a decad e or so in the future - the threat Torchwood (in the larger sense, 1-4) is facing is Ianto - with the line "You made me, and taught me everything I know". Mwa. I think you captured that idea in its infancy.
kesemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:39 pm (UTC)
ooh, Ianto as a TW-made baddie... that really has potential.

Thank you :)
naimunaimu on April 30th, 2008 09:56 pm (UTC)
that was intense and beautiful~
thank you for writing!!!
kesemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading

and enjoying :)
(no subject) - naimu on May 1st, 2008 10:15 pm (UTC) (Expand)
morgiamorgia on April 30th, 2008 11:32 pm (UTC)
ho wow ! Really intense !!
kesemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:19 pm (UTC)
thank you :)
Tanni: TW jackianto dancingtanisafan on April 30th, 2008 11:39 pm (UTC)
Oh ngh, issue-resolving-via-sex. I love it.

This was oh so very good. You do such a great job showing us the ways in which Ianto has changed. I'm convinced that he is, regardless of what a lot of people seem to think, the one who's in control in the Jack/Ianto relationship.

Also, this line?
Jack had watched him with slight amusement, amazed that Ianto had changed this much and had apparently decided that Jack was worth the risk
This line is, I think, what makes this pairing really work for me. *smishes*
kes: TW Jack/Ianto animated smirk/prOnemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:18 pm (UTC)
Thank you, dahling. I do try *grins*
felmyst on May 1st, 2008 12:06 am (UTC)
Wow! Angst!Violence!Sex! Excellent fic and characterizations...
kesemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:05 pm (UTC)
thank you :)
thrace_adams: Ianto half the fandomthrace_adams on May 1st, 2008 03:11 am (UTC)
Frak me that was hot! Damn! I can totally understand how Ianto feels and how Jack feels. This was really well done!
kes: TW Jack/Ianto animated smirk/prOnemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 05:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much :)
Deedefine_serenity on May 1st, 2008 07:02 pm (UTC)
Aww, I feel sad for Ianto, the ways he has changed. But on the other hand, I'm not sad for Ianto, because he really does have Jack to hold onto (even though I think a lot of times it's the other way around) The slash was hot!!

kesemily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 07:07 pm (UTC)
Of course it's the other way around a lot of times, but Jack still does comfort Ianto.

I get the feeling you didn't like it that much. I know you. There would be more exclamation marks.
(no subject) - define_serenity on May 1st, 2008 07:10 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - emily_sheppard on May 1st, 2008 07:18 pm (UTC) (Expand)
It All Comes Back to the Breath: pic#72414255jo02 on May 2nd, 2008 09:00 am (UTC)
Yes! That was really, really god!

Thank you.
kesemily_sheppard on May 2nd, 2008 04:34 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)
Astuta: Im Ianto - Girlfriendastuta on May 4th, 2008 01:00 am (UTC)
I like this darker Ianto. What I really love is that this could actually happen. A lot of fics try to explore a darker side of him and they usually fail, but this is perfection. *mems*
kes: TW Jack/Ianto animated smirk/prOnemily_sheppard on May 4th, 2008 05:27 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you *g*

(also, love the icon. so true)
Nancy: Myfanwynancybrown on October 18th, 2009 05:20 pm (UTC)
Wow. Really liked the insights in this one.
kesemily_sheppard on October 18th, 2009 06:23 pm (UTC)
thanks :)